We only have one chance in life

I am having a large movie season and will comment on the movies I’ve seen, just before the Oscars ceremony will come out. Obviously for that reason I’m seeing majority of nominated movies but also I am getting back to movies I’ve seen before or the ones that are pretty old but I haven’t had the chance to see them.

Tonight I re-watched 8 Mile. Yeah, that 8 Mile with Eminem. I know I don’t really seem to be a type who’d watch something like that but honestly, it’s a good piece of shit as the film characters would say about themselves. I really was in a mood for some bitchin’-fussin’ movie and 8 Mile served its purpose.

Moreover, it brought over the old thought about having one shot, one opportunity that we should not miss or let slip through our fingers. What does it even mean to have only one chance in life?

I am really hesitating. On one side, we have one shot – one life. That’s perfectly true, of course. On the flip side, opportunity is never a single issue. It comes back to us over and over and it is after all that one shot, that one life which is defined by the opportunities. Even the ones we’ve missed.

It is written in my movie that we only have one chance in life and I took those chances. That might only mean that a woman has just one chance with one thing in her whole life, the very precious chance. The chance that can set a woman free. That is the only possible explanation I got.

I don’t know. I just know I’ve become to be a woman who takes these chances on. The opportunities are always minute away from us. If you don’t believe me, just look out your window. I live at 8th floor. There’s an opportunity to finish everything. Yeah, even that is an opportunity. But that doesn’t mean we should take every opportunity that is close or the easiest ones. We should fight to get the best opportunities, to blow that one shot real loudly.

So these days, I simply stopped caring whether I took the right opportunities. Life is just a journey to enjoy. It has always been my life’s philosophy and I forgot to reminded it to myself from time to time. Whatever is gonna happen, I will go on. Cuz I got tired of me, taking the opportunities and leaving them in the middle because I simply gave up. And after all, we know that the only real failure is not to realize how close we were to success when we gave up.

Anyways, I finally figured out what was stopping me all those months from actually doing something. I focused too much on my future family life – on something that is so unknown to me and yet to be explored. I thought now that I have to get ready to be a good cook, future mother or admirable wife; I should forget about my dreams. I thought there was no way to combine these things.

But I was wrong. Maybe I needed to shut the careerist in myself a bit but I messed it up when I chucked out my dreams. Maybe they are all unreal but that’s what dreams are for. I may have years of mundane job until I get to pursue them. But I know the time will eventually come. I know that is what I should achieve before my time is up. And I hope all of you will see it. It will be really good, I promise.

Until then, I am gonna be grateful for that very dream of being a part of huge creative process that I will always support. It started with that one only chance. It will end with the blur, the only thing we’ll see. And I will wait for the right moment even if it takes my whole life.

Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted – one moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?

~ by Lenka Bliss on January 30, 2009.