Running into future only to fall in the past again
I’ve been away for a long time I know. I’ve distanced myself from my cyber world in fake hope that I am running into the future and need to enjoy it thoroughly. I started the year of 2009 in the way that I would never even dream of starting. The days that came after were totally different from anything I ever experienced. I learned a lot. I realized even more. I was so preoccupied with present that I forgot that the fairy tale would eventually come to an end. And I will have to face the rain of my shiny happiness. So yeah, we were running to the future and we found each other in our past again. I don’t know where was the point in all of that. Our lives were full of promise but the good things never last.
And so here I am, again, struggling, being absolutely vague cuz I have to censor myself in case I’d be stalked. Nothing and nobody has the right to make me censor myself. So beware.
Anyways, while I was away, I visited many places, I got back to school recharged and now trying to keep the amount of energy I again felt but lost for a while yesterday. It’s gonna be tough 115 days of my life. And I hope I’ll find my peace after that.
Is it weird to be happy and sad that you’re back? Cause I am.
huh :D now I don’t know whether that should make me happy or sad :D:D So I don’t really know :D But I do know that I need to catch up with your posts :))
I’m glad that you’re back, just sorry you’re struggling again.
That’s a hard post to respond to. It’s so…so CENSORED!
Lenka. :-) Hi hon, welcome back, and as usual I relate to everything you are saying. Being censored is not a bad thing. It’s hard to not get caught up in wanting to be completely open and accepted, but sometimes circumstances are such that guarding a little needs to be in place. Your never struggling alone out here though and if you ever need to talk, you know where to find me.
Missed you.
Always