Attempt to take away the pieces of my soul – FAILED
And once again the old quote is coming back at me “yes but you have had fewer influences to corrupt you. Those will come and you will have to fight them.The real trick is to learn to do what you have to do in a practical sense without losing that voice of truth within you. I think you already do that…but life is long and this can be difficult.”
This time, I was accused of not having the sense of common village people in Slovakia. Oh thanks god that I don’t. For almost a while I felt such accusations were destroying my soul. I am not surprised though, cuz people I met in Bristol were just as shallow for me as any stranger I may encounter on the street. I knew there was hardly someone worth calling a friend. And I am glad I never was so gullible and didn’t name any one of them friend cuz they aren’t.
I do not let life’s coincidences to take away the pieces of my soul. I do not let those pieces be taken by normalcy, prejudice, censorship, boundaries, embarrassment, and jealousy. My soul is the sacred space and the only person who I am willing to let those pieces take away is me and my only soulmate. After all, it is me and his “property”, created by caring, love, trust, compassion, honesty, worship and genuine curiosity.
Life has taken much optimism from me. People attempt to destroy me with their jealousy to the extent that I give up. I let few things to corrupt me but not this time. I do not have the Freud’s Superego, I am sorry, my dear village people.
People should finally learn that what is between two people cannot be understood by any other and they should care about themselves and their shallow lives.
From this time on, I will protect what I have in every possible way by being extra careful. And under no circumstances I will let anybody judge me or teach me a lesson unless it’s a real friend and fortunately I can distinguish what real friendship is. Because after all, what I do in my life is just caused by hunger. The hunger for an alternative and the refusal to accept life of unhappiness.
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