The State that I am in

I’ve written couple of posts since the last one but none of them had been published for the simple reason that I haven’t found any main idea in them except the endless chatter of what is new in my life. But thinking about it now, there’s always some intention, some purpose in things that we are doing and it made sense to me, after all, that I wrote those couple of lines even though I didn’t publish them. 

I wrote about 4th July, how I sang the Star Spangled Banner in the morning facing my American Flag. I named the post “silly”. Another post was about falling in love…with life and contained news that I have. Things like that I’ve sorted out the accommodation so breathing now is just whole lot more easier and I can finally enjoy life here (even though without much money). 

I wrote about the English weather and how much it sucks. I wrote about life’s coincidences and how they can link between one another. I wrote about memories that fulfill my heart and future desires, I wrote about new Coldplay CD that isn’t as great as I expect it to be. I wrote about my work that isn’t brilliant but how it puts me on the top of everyone. I wrote about the variety that I have because I can manage few things in there. I wrote about the changes in Youth parliament at home. I wrote about being a big head again.

I wrote about my future ipod touch that is going to be engraved with “Your wildest dreams, those dreams are you”. I wrote about perfect Mates of State and Plants and Animals that I fell in love with. I wrote about Goldfrapp because her song A&E is being played in the restaurant in our hotel couple of times per day and therefore I can clearly picture, feel and taste certain things even stronger whilst I work. 

I could write about all of that again. Yes, this would be like thousands of posts. Posts without some big point. Nevertheless, everything that happens, that we do, that we want to do has some purpose, some intention behind all of it. My intention would be to share it with the world and with my secret world. 

World that I miss, that grows stronger and thrive, just as my own personal does. So in the end, nothing is now more important than to say that I’ve been having the days of my life, enjoying this experience and tender days of youth while making few more friends along the way. I am sad, I am nervous, then I am happy and cheery, lazy and energetic…dramatic and scary and no, I am not PMSing. :) After all, I am feeling at peace right now. :) 

Sorry if this post sounded really weird. :) But I am weirdo :)

~ by Lenka Bliss on July 7, 2008.